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Editorial Reviews. From Publishers Weekly. Hornbacher, who detailed her struggle with bulimia Madness: A Bipolar Life – Kindle edition by Marya Hornbacher. Download it once and read it on your Kindle device, PC, phones or tablets. The problem here may be that Hornbacher doesn’t remember much of her own life, which would make writing a memoir difficult. Hornbacher, who detailed her struggle with bulimia and anorexia in Wasted, now shares the story of her lifelong battle with mental illness.

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The thing I have feared and railed against all my life – the total loss of control over my mind – has madnews in, and I have no way to fight it any more. The story tells of the author’s experience with the disease, suffering, unknowing, discovery, treatment and the “ups and downs” she goes through.

Madness: A Bipolar Life

It shows up without calling and sits in your kitchen ashing in your plant. I stand naked in front of the bedroom mirror. Lack of understanding of her condition and continual misdiagnosis had Marya self-medicating with alcohol, amphetamines, depressants and narcotics cocaine as early as 13, as well as suffering from hypersexuality and practicing self-mutilation. Madnesa can’t let her out. If Marya laments total loss of control, I lament the lack of. The madness sleeps under the house, its scaly tail over its nose.

When a person lies to themselves, they appropriate a false reality, which they project to those around them as fricking gospel truth. In comparison, Madness was hornbaher disappointing. I hate the person I was. Aug 25, Erica rated it did not like it. Is this mitigated by the fact that the charity is benefitting regardless of the intentions of said individual?

He has his reasons: Marya Hornbacher Reviewed by: Which I had to do often. Finally, I’m sent to rehab. The book is highly recommended, if you can stomach the rawness of it and the descriptions of the self-injury behavior, for anyone who has a loved one in their life grappling with bipolar disorder, or hornbachsr any serious mental disorder.


View all 3 comments. My fingers run over my body: I am having a perfectly lovely evening, and then it’s dark and I am screaming, standing in the middle of the room, turning over the glass-topped coffee table, ripping the bathroom sink out of the wall, picking up anything nearby and throwing it as hard as I can.

It is unclear from Hornbacher’s stories what her parents were able to recognize in their daughter as unusual and what they engdendered as a result of their own erratic behavior. One minute she is in the hospital, the next, “I’m sitting in a folding chair, looking around a crowded room. Her case is way more extreme than mine, I have the type 2 bipolar and I’m on a slow cycle. When she is manic, her writing reaches a fevered pitch of vivid descriptions of taste, sound, visceral feelings, fear, panic, giddiness, and delusions bordering on full blown p Amazing hkrnbacher by an amazingly strong woman.

To read of someone disobeying, of spitting in their hornbscher sanity’s face, so to speak; is shocking to me. She can only learn to live with it and try her best, through routine, to keep the madness at bay. Gornbacher memior by an amazingly strong woman. In one scene, mqdness leaves the house without clothes on, realizes it, goes in and puts on a dress.

This hornbachher didn’t sink in for a long, long time, but when it did, she had a chance for a life outside her local hospital’s psychiatric unit. I am stunned by the author’s ability to articulate her feelings and her bravery for telling us her story as it is, no matter how inglorious some parts are. Even though this book is grim and disturbing at times, it does not sugarcoat the disorder. In fact, she cannot. What madnes you do? Now, still a young woman, Hornbacher tells the story that until recently she had no idea was hers to tell: Aug 29, Anne rated it liked it.

I was at turns hopeful then despairing then back to determined hopefulness – much as she lives her life. They madnesw my voice, my hands, I scream and throw myself against the walls.


I crash into a depression that lasts for nine months. I saw a lot of my own symptoms in her experiences.

When swinging low on madnss emotional totem pole, Marya’s bouts of depression rendered her bedridden for weeks at a time, her life as well as her house falling into disarray with another hospitalization on the horizon.

Marya has also written another book called “Wasted” that I cannnot wait to read. Instead, it just provides a grim view of one mother-fucker of a mental illness.

Marya Hornbacher: diary of despair

These doctors are fools, my parents’ terror unfounded. It runs down my arm, wrapping around my wrists and dripping off my fingers on to the dirty white tile floor. But do yourself a favor and do not macness to the audiobook.

I really like these types of books. There are other kinds of damage, to the people in your life, to your sense of who you are and what you can do, to your future and the choices you’ll have. At the age of 24, Marya Hornbacher was diagnosed with Type I bipolar disorder.

The sincerity and forcefulness of the message is enough to throw anyone within a mile radius off kilter. She’s bulimic at nine years old, getting drunk at 10, and sleeping around and doing hard drugs by high school.

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When she is low, the pace of her writing is dark and thick. But this book shows not just tells with surprising clarity what it is to be insane.

At age twenty-four, Hornbacher was diagnosed with Type I rapid-cycle bipolar, the most severe form of bipolar disorder.